Thursday, November 10, 2011

30 days of thankful - day 10

30 Days of Thankful - Day 10

Lazy Days

I have enormous amounts of time lately.
Ellie is in school from 8:15 to 3:30.
And I don't have a job.
The plan all along was to get a job when Ellie started school.
Then Noonie got sick.
And I am kinda in limbo.
Do I get a job, just to have to quit when it comes time that he really needs me?
Or do we just stick it out for awhile longer with one paycheck?
Decisions Decisions.
I have a few resumes out.
Am looking into things.
Trying to find just the right fit.
But for now, lots and lots of time.
I try and be productive most days.
My closets are the best shape they have ever been in.
My laundry is always caught up.
Never a dish in the sink for long.
Ellie (and Chris when he wants one) get a healthy lunch packed.
A nice dinner is on the table... most nights.
I volunteer at school.
I also try not spend a lot of money.
This one is HARD.
It is amazing how a trip to Target for little girls tights,
turns into $50 worth of stuff I just had to have!
Or how often I want to meet a friend for lunch or coffee.
I have lots of time,  and it is hard not to want to get out and see what's happening.
Chris is great.
He tells me to enjoy it while it lasts.
To do the things I want to do.
Love that man.
But it's weird.
I feel slightly guilty.
Like a kept woman, if you will.
I want to be contributing more than I am.
Add a little $$ to the college fund.
I guess I am feeling a little useless.
A little underutilized.
A little bored.

Woe is me, right?
All in good time I suppose.
It will work out.
It always does.
But yesterday.
Oh my.
I did nothing.
Now, granted, I was just this side of a nasty cold, not feeling well.
And I took that and ran with it.
Took Ellie to school,
and came home and put my comfy pants back on.
Layed in bed all day,
with a kitty curled up next to me,
and watched my dvr'd Biggest Loser,
and 4 episodes of Animal Cops Detroit.
Throw in some coffee and tomato basil soup,
and you have had yourself one lazy day.
Some days you just need a day like that.
And I am thankful for them.
And PS.
I didn't spend a dime.
I just posted and re-read that and realized how spoiled I sound.
I was going to change it, but you know what?
It's real.
It's what's happening right now.

I am enjoying this time.
It's fantastic.
I love my life.
I try and live in the moment, enjoy every second.
Cause it is going FAST!

I am just looking forward to the next chapter.
That's all.


C. Beth said...

I do think it's just a special time for you right now. I'm glad you're enjoying it, and you are keeping yourself free to help your dad. Sounds good to me. :)

shelley c. said...

I don't think it sounds spoiled. I think it would only sound spoiled if you weren't grateful for it, if you didn't realize all of the work that goes into it - and you do. And you know that it isn't the forever way, so you can enjoy it while it is here! Seriously, it sounds heavenly. :)