Thursday, November 22, 2012


Ever since mom died, I struggle with the holidays.
They just aren't the same.
So I always made sure to keep myself insanely busy.
So I wouldn't notice what was missing.

Last year.
The unthinkable happened.
We had no plans for Christmas Eve.
Christmas Eve.
My favorite and hardest day of the year.
 But then something miraculous happened.
It was just us.
And we rocked Christmas Eve.
We rocked it like a hurricane.
I don't want it to be any other way now.
It happened again last night.
We had no plans, the night before Thanksgiving.
So we opened a bottle of red.
Played gin.
And laughed.  A lot.
 So while there might be a huge hole where she should be.
It healed just a little when I realized when I have everything I need right here.
I love how much he adores her.
And what a good example he is for her.
And how he makes her life silly and fun.
I am Thankful.
 I love our traditions.
And our inside jokes.
And the things we don't tell anyone else about.
I am Thankful.
 I love how she makes me laugh.
And how she has my hair color.
And how she looks just like my mama.
I am Thankful.
 I love how he loves me.
He is so very good at it.
For that, I am eternally Thankful.
I have it good.
Better than most even.

Sunday, November 18, 2012


 We had us a great weekend.
All friends and family with a side of (much needed) house and yard work.
 We ventured to an outdoor upscale mall scene to watch SANTA ligth the tree and set off fireworks.
It was great!

And we cannot keep her fed.
She has to be growing.
Because she is hungry all. the. time.
And now it is Sunday night.
If it weren't for the Walking Dead, I wouldn't like Sunday nights.

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

tuesday random

I kinda like Tuesdays.
They're unassuming.
And chill.
Plus there's lots of good tv on.
Like Parenthood.
Man alive.
I have yet to make it through an episode without bawling like a big ol' baby.
Ordered our Christmas cards today.
We went funky this year.
I hope everyone likes them.
We have a funky glue smell in our house.
It's really bad.
Apparently they sauldered some sewer lines somewhere.
And the stench came up through our pipes.
We all have headaches.
It's super fun.
That's all I have to say.
I have laundry to fold and a glass of pinot to drink.
And Parenthood to watch.
Peace out party people.

Thursday, November 8, 2012


Hustle and bustle.
I feel hurried.
All the time.
I don't like that.
Below are 4 examples of how I am just not quite cutting it.
1.  She was in bed, asleep, before I had time to kiss her goodnight.
 2.  I am just now getting to posting her Halloween pics.
She was a fawn.
 Her candy loot that I can't seem to find time to throw out.
There's lots of good stuff in there :)
 I have taught her to make her own grilled cheese.
Cause who has time to make dinner?
Ok.  In all seriousness, I do still cook for her, but figured it was high time she start learning her way around the stove.
She did great.
This is my first time working during the holidays, with a kid to make a great Christmas for, and I am 14 kinds of stressed.
Isn't that stupid.
Yes. I said stupid.
Things at work are nutso busy.
Which is good.
Things at home are busy.
Which is good.
I don't like being busy!
Rant over.
Will someone please comment and tell me to chill the heck out?!?!?

Saturday, November 3, 2012

family pics

We had some family pictures taken by my friend LIZ a few weeks ago.
She did such a great job!
If you are local, check her out!
I can't show you my very favorites, cause one of them is going to be my Christmas card.
I just don't know which one yet.
Here are a few from the day...

 For anyone who has a lovey as important as Baby Polar Bear, you understand why he got his moment of glory.
He is a part of the family, afterall.

 My little model baby.

This next one is one of my very favorites.
Maybe even my favorite.
But since it is not really Christmas card appropriate, you get to see it.
Dear Heavens, I love this man.
We were way overdue for some shots.
And I am please as punch with what we got.
Thanks Liz!!