Sunday, May 1, 2011


It's been a week.

I have known for a few weeks that my dad has lung cancer.
I was going home to get the results of his MRI and pet scan.
To see where things stood.

I never made it home...
but I will get to that in a minute.

The cancer is in both lungs and his lymph nodes.
But not in his brain.
So bad news and good news I guess.

He starts chemo next week.
His cancer is "treatable but not beatable."

I am worried about him going through chemo all alone.
I plan to go home as often as possible.
Take care of him and such.

He seems ok so far.
Pretty at peace with it.
Or as ok with it as a person can be.

Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers.

Now, about not going home...

Remember how I said I had to have a mammogram last week?
Well, the actual mammogram was absoutely no big deal.
Barely even uncomfortable.
Except for the fact that they found "areas of concern."
Which led to panic and 2 biopsies.
Which hurt like hell.
For. Real.
Like whimpering on the table and asking the nurse to hold my hand hurt.

Which lead to 4 days of the whole
"do I or don't I?"
while waiting for the results.

Which I don't.
Thank. The. Lord.

It was so nothing that I don't even have to go back until I am 40.

But now I have some bruised boobies and a new look on life.
Thinking I may have cancer changed how I saw everything.
Realizing I was ok made me very appreciative.
Of the life I have.
Of the people I have.
Of the time I have.

So, yes.
It's been a week.
A week of extreme ups and downs.
I am very happy for myself.
But very sad for Noonie.
(That would be my dad. Everyone calls him Noonie.)


C. Beth said...


I am so sorry about your dad. I know this is going to be a tough journey, and I pray you'll get a lot of joyful, amazing time with him in the months & years to come. I'm glad he has you.

And I'm glad your family has you for a VERY long time. Whew.

shelley c. said...

I am glad that you are okay, but sorry that you had to have such a scare to find that out. I am truly sorry to hear about your dad. What a week you had... (((hugs))) my friend.

Lisa said...

I am so sorry to hear about your dad...and so glad to hear that everything is fine with your mammogram! What a rough week emotionally.

abby said...

Tough week indeed. We are praying for you and your dad. Hugs from Farmland...

forever folding laundry said...


I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. I'll pray for continued peace for your dad and for you as well. I'm sure you'll be a huge source of comfort for him.

And I'm so glad all turned out ok with your mammogram. That must have been so scary. You deserve to go buy yourself a cute new bra. ;)