Merry Christmas!

I am all done.

All ready for Santa and family time.

 

From our house to yours...

Merry Christmas!!

too close

I like to know what's going on.

I like to hear things.

I even like to gossip.

 

But this.

I don't want to know about this.

Not any of it.

 

I don't want to know why or when or where.

I especially don't want to know how many.

 

I don't want to think about unopened Christmas presents.

Or left-behind sisters and brothers.

I don't want to fathom a mother's arms who are holding special stuffed animals,

trying to smell a familiar smell,  

instead of tiny little warm bodies.

 

It's too much.

Too close.

 

They were 6.

She is 6.

 

I have stayed away from the news.

Stayed away from Facebook

I don't want to hear the childen's accounts of what happened.

The sensationalism of it all.

It makes me so very sad.

 

So instead I do what every other fortunate mother is doing.

I hug her tighter.

And relish her smell and giggles.

And even her whinyness.

Cause she is still here.

I still have her.

No random act of awfulness has stolen her from me.

 

Today we are in our matching jammies.

Baking cookies and finishing up our homemade Christmas presents.

I am so lucky.

So very, very, very lucky.

 

God bless those affected.

God bless those families.

God bless those mothers.

And God bless those sweet little boys and girls.

the bare essentials

My poor kid.

I am doing the bare essentials this Christmas.

Think she notices?

Of course she doesn't.

But I do.

And it bothers the heck outta me.

Here it is, halfway through December and we have read nary a Christmas book.

It's shameful really.

This weekend though, we are HOLIDAZING it UP!

Christmas light looking.

Christmas cookie baking.

Present buying and wrapping.

Carols.

I am gonna cram the whole holiday in this one teeny tiny little weekend.

So there.

On a side note:

Benjamin has been a huge hit this year.

Sneaky little elf.

Some people think he is creepy looking.

I think he is mischievous looking.

Thoughts?

read any good books lately?

I am not reading.

 

This is like saying the sky is green.

or

The grass is red.

 

It's just not true.

Usually.

 

I usually devour books.

Can't read them fast enough.

 

I blame the job.

Stupid job.

 

However, for the last 6 or so months, I haven't read more than 2 books.

This is not ok.

 

Not even a little.

 

I have tried.

I pick a book up at night,

and two seconds later, my eyes slam shut.

 

And on weekends, I really feel like I should maybe clean my house

or spend some time with my kid.

 

Then,

this week I picked up a James Patterson at the library.

Cause he is SO EASY to read.

 

It's about animals that start to attack people and take over the world.

Weird.

and Good!

 

Mayby my dry spell is over??

 

Here's hoping.

 

I have a few queued on my ipad.

One is for book club.

Next week.

Better get on it!